In heart in brain no idea negative or positive,because I want to see my hubby happy the mind always keep ask me to give in him to other girl and that person sure got to do with his X. It is lie if never sad but maybe thats the only way to sacrifice everything for my love one. I have no idea till when I can bare all this just because of I cannot control my pain all the housework not done. Thats normal if ur own husband don't like it. I just have to sacrifice so that my love one can get good housewife or a mummy. Lie if i never cry or sad but thats the only way so that hubby can get a just nice housewife or workhousewife.What I know i still want him till end of my life with our children.
Talk about children im actually desprate mode to try another 1 but as normal I still cannot conceived maybe due of my sick stress feeling.
Due of all this pain I have it, I just want to enjoy with my love one see my fav celebrities and whoever I like to spend with it. Because I know all this just temporary only. While I still can happy for myself and love myself I will be fine too.I just need to limit my responsible to go all these place.
Hm as for today, I suddenly think of find $70 to get part time maid to clean my house and iron our cloth. Aygku help me alot already till i feel guilty sad stress of his healthy and safety. Every night I will just keep recite for his healthy and safety till he reached home, sometime I do asleep due of too sleepy maybe. I have no idea how long all this have to go tru for him,I just hope by 2014 or 2015 everything will be fine for our Miracle Family.
