Unexpected miracle life will be shutdown.

My new life, the truth im still stuck not sure to fight for him or not. Because he start to always with his gf. Should I forgive him or not. Anyway he decide to divorce me too. I need to accept everything already same goes to him need to accept to pay me the responsible payment to me and our only princess NDB. 

My princess really a strong daughter maybe, because she still not sure what going on. But is ok she understand me enough already. 

My Birthday present for this year were new job and divorce decision by my beloved husband.

I not sure how strong will I be, Alhamdulillah with the love from Ohana n Hotlovers and Anding still stay strong with me. I never show my sadness at all. But my body inner really sick too much of stress had to go through.

Well for now I just focus work OT if sick go doc than take time off from work for my MC Queen problem. 

I realised now have new sickness out of sudden want to vomit aiyoh. So now everywhere I go must plastic n oilment. 

What the truth I really want is a big hug n shoulder to cry. But again I try to avoid it because that called nafsu syaitan. Because my heart want a guy hug. I try my dad n my mum but still cannot let it out that much. Well again from there i know already.